The Court Of Curiosity

Not gonna lie, I forgot to post here and kinda forgot that it existed. *Yikes* To be fair, I also haven’t been journaling and I think those things kinda go hand in hand for me.

Have you ever felt ashamed of yourself for not doing the things you said you’d do? That’s what led to me not journaling. I just kinda felt like I was letting myself down, and I was ashamed to write about it. Like, I don’t want to lie to myself in my journal but I also don’t want to face the truth. It made sense to me at the time so I’m not fighting it. I also can’t do anything about it.

Today, I set a timer for 15 minutes and made myself journal. It wasn’t as bad as I thought it would be. Thoughts came to me pretty easily, and I was able to summarize most of my month in the time. I also feel a lot lighter. BY DOING ONE THING ON MY TO-DO LIST I FEEL SO MUCH LIGHTER! It’s funny too because I know this about myself. Whenever I check things off for myself, I feel so much better. Anyway.

I’ve been keeping busy! Each day, I sometimes feel like I’m not doing enough, and I tend to be a bit tough on myself. But now that about three months have gone by, I’m starting to see that I’m actually making good progress. I’m headed towards my goals, and that’s what truly matters to me!

I think the difference is that I’ve done a lot of work to figure out my ‘why’, and I’ve been constantly reminding myself of it… that and I’m really over hating my life and the things that I’ve been doing.

At the end of the day though, I’m really trying to live a life that I am happy with. One day at a time. What’s one thing that you are doing for yourself to live your ideal life? Talk to you later!